Quick update

I've been away for a week on vacation and then on a physiotherapy course.  So I haven't kept up with my commenting.  I've been reading but I apologize for being a bad commenter.
I'm continuing to feel good with little to report.  Our next Dr. appointment isn't until February 10th, so the only updates I have for now are symptoms and shopping!  I plan to start my shopping plan next weekend just because I can!  I know it's still early to shop but I figure I've waited 4 years for this so I'm moving forward.
I found myself looking at double strollers every time I saw one this past week.  It's hard to say whether I should get a tandem one or a double-wide.  They both seem to have advantages/disadvantages.  I've been offered a single stroller from a friend that I think I'll take as well.  It could come in handy when grandparents just want to take one baby/child along with them.
Otherwise, I'm enjoying reading other people making purchasing decisions.  What a great network we have here!

Things

Like I said earlier, our nuchal test came back quite good. He asked if we wanted to do CVS and we told him we decided against it. Otherwise, I met with an internist who specializes in pregnant women and she gave me a medication I can try for my migraines. I've always had migraines, I just always used to be able to drug up. Now they aren't leaving. She said that I likely won't need the meds much b/c my hormones have just peaked and things will get better now. I have to say, I've had a pretty easy 1st trimester.
It just seems so so strange to have positive things happening. You get so used to negative news and moods that it is hard to fully except the good stuff. I'm definitely getting there though.
Cutest thing, my mom has been collecting baby items for the past 4 years. She never told me b/c of all of our trouble. Yesterday she showed me her spare room with it all laid out and it was crazy. Im not sure I'll have to buy a single item!
My poor coworker had to deliver her stillborn babies today. What a terrible thing to go through. I'm thoughtful of how hard it could be for her to be around me in the near future.

Sad

My co-worker, the first girl I hired when I opened my business 6 years ago, just lost both of her twins, in-utero at 27 weeks. I am just devastated for her. I can't image how painful this must be.
I had my nuchal testing, among other things, yesterday. Everything is normal but it doesn't sound as reassuring anymore.
I'm so sad.

Twins

One of the babies died at 7 weeks, about 3 days after my last ultrasound.  It was a little sad to see that, now that I've gotten my head around triplets.  But no matter how I think about it, I think twins is a better situation for us.  I think I might even feel a little guilty that I feel that way.  But there it is.
We have a "multiples specialist" for our OBGYN who we met yesterday.  He said that I'll be there about every 2nd week.  Nice to know we'll be that monitored now.  The 2 babies are measuring well, one at 39mm and the other at 44mm.  Apparently he doesn't think it's a big deal that they are already quite different in size.  He also said that our chance of miscarrying now is less that 1% because we had strong heartbeats past 10 weeks.
So we started telling people important to us today.  It feels weird and very unreal.  We can move on with planning things and buying things now.
Next week, we go back for the nuchal scan.  We have to make a decision about CVS or amniocentesis or neither, between now and then.  He thinks that if the nuchal scan is suspect that we should do CVS.  It seems so odd that the risk of DS is less than 1% and the risk of miscarriage after CVS is about 1%.  Huh.
Anyway, twins for us!  What a different feeling from 3 months ago.

Quick update

Nothing new to report here. We're still waiting for our consult and ultrasound on the 6th. I am finally starting to gain some weight and seem to be redistributing the weight I already had. The belly is building.
I can't believe we're going to have babies this summer! Wow, I think I had given up hope.

Feeling more optimistic

It's sinking in now.  I'm generally thinking positive.  Now that I've educated myself a little, I feel a bit more in control.  I feel good that I can control my diet and my work duties/hours.  I can't control the fact that I'm quite short and have not had a previously stretched uterus.  So I have plusses and minuses for carrying triplets.  We're obviously going to be dealing with premies, so I'm trying to get my head around the worry that comes with that.  
Our Dr. appt is January 6th.  It sounds like we'll be talking about the risks and whether or not we should "reduce".  I don't know what he could tell us now that would make us choose to reduce, but we'll see.
My symptoms are very light and easy.  I am very tired and still very short of breath.  But I do not have nausea! (knock wood).  I don't have as big of an appetite as I'd like so I eat less at each sitting, but I'm making myself eat every 3 hours anyway.  Oddly enough, I've only gained 1 pound so far.  Although, my belly is a little bigger so I don't totally get that.  I'm apparently supposed to gain 30-40lbs by week 20 so now being in the middle of week 8, I have a lot to gain.  I'm going for 2lbs a week and we'll see how it goes.
And now we just wait.  And eat.

Thoughts..and the protocol info

We're just waiting for a consult with a specialist in "multiples" right now. I feel overwhelmed. It seems we've just jumped into another situation where we'll worry all the time. There are just so many health risks for triplets. I feel like this news has taken away my excitement over finally getting pregnant. What is wrong with me?
The IVF dr. was annoying. He pointed out that they suggested only 2 should be transferred. Not to argue, but just to give feedback, we reminded him how we had 4 previously failed cycles where the dr was ALWAYS optimistic, even when they obviously shouldn't have been. So apparently THIS time they were right. How were we to believe that after all the failures. And why didn't we go to day 5 transfer if they were so optimistic? He basically just reminded us that they were right. Annoying. But whatever, that doesn't matter now.
I totally think the difference in quality had to be the protocol. I have been good with my diet, supplements and all the little neurotic things for 1.5 years. The only thing significant that I think changed was the protocol. Maybe it was just chance or stats, but why did all 3 implant and 3 more freeze? Odd thing though, the protocol was not a normal one. He just decided to use 2 meds almost exactly the same to get me more LH. I was worried it was all guess work at the time.
Repronex 225
Menopur 150
Funny how many people are told LH early on decreases quality yet the only thing that worked for me is MORE LH. Are they just totally guessing in IVF?