We're just waiting for a consult with a specialist in "multiples" right now. I feel overwhelmed. It seems we've just jumped into another situation where we'll worry all the time. There are just so many health risks for triplets. I feel like this news has taken away my excitement over finally getting pregnant. What is wrong with me?
The IVF dr. was annoying. He pointed out that they suggested only 2 should be transferred. Not to argue, but just to give feedback, we reminded him how we had 4 previously failed cycles where the dr was ALWAYS optimistic, even when they obviously shouldn't have been. So apparently THIS time they were right. How were we to believe that after all the failures. And why didn't we go to day 5 transfer if they were so optimistic? He basically just reminded us that they were right. Annoying. But whatever, that doesn't matter now.
I totally think the difference in quality had to be the protocol. I have been good with my diet, supplements and all the little neurotic things for 1.5 years. The only thing significant that I think changed was the protocol. Maybe it was just chance or stats, but why did all 3 implant and 3 more freeze? Odd thing though, the protocol was not a normal one. He just decided to use 2 meds almost exactly the same to get me more LH. I was worried it was all guess work at the time.
Repronex 225
Menopur 150
Funny how many people are told LH early on decreases quality yet the only thing that worked for me is MORE LH. Are they just totally guessing in IVF?
Done, and Yet, Not Done
6 years ago
Honestly, I can't even imagine getting this news, esp after all you've been through. And god, wouldn't it be nice to have a reason WHY you have three heartbeats now and none all those times before? Maybe it was the protocol, or maybe just dumb luck. And, uh, yeah, your RE is being a douche.
ReplyDeleteNo doubt you'll spend a lot of time worrying. But honestly, you'd probably worry a ton with one as well, given what you went through to get here, no? Hopefully the shock will wear off eventually and you'll get to enjoy it!
I would be overwhelmed too, but really, I wouldn't have transferred fewer embryos either. I think so much of this is more of an art than a science, and if you are like me, I don't put too much stock in what doctors have to say anymore. We all respond differently to different protocols, so maybe this was your "magic" protocol, or maybe you just had an exceptional groups of eggs that month. I have read about too much LH being a bad thing, and for me, I still think it would be as evidenced in what I see in my protocol and fertilization records.
ReplyDeleteI know it sounds cliche, but I hope you are able to take this new journey one day at a time. Praying for peace.
I've been wondering lately about the LH argument as well. I've seen people like me (lots of immature eggs) have successful cycles with Menupur only, then I have doctors telling me I shouldn't have any LH at the beginning of my cycle. I wish there was consensus out there. Just seems like such a crapshoot when you here completely different opinions from professionals.
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